Day 10

Oh how the days run together, I must make a commitment to blog everyday or else write the days down.

Today I remember was a gastronomy and food safety day. I wish I could remember every minute detail but unfortunately I do not.

I remember lunch, for it was a very memorable lunch. It made me realize as much as I love New York and the atmosphere you will always run into road blocks, or possibly speed bumps. Lunch wasn't necessarily a road block, but it was a punch to the stomach to knock the wind out of me. My lunch table was with somewhat familiar faces, however one of the faces I'd never seen before. He was a graduate who was employed by the CIA as a recruiter. He went around the table asking where people were from and talking about the different areas he travels to recruit. I laughed, preparing another ice breaker. "You never send anyone down to Oklahoma".

This ice breaker was crushed immediately. He told me there was no point to recruit in Oklahoma. I kept a smile frozen on my face expecting a joke or a laugh, anything to insinuating a tease. Nothing.

"Why are you from there?" Yes. I smiled again, maybe he just didn't understand. "I still don't change my mind." Stones filled up my stomach and my cheeks flushed with and icy chill. How was I being judged for who I was by just this one statement? I felt sick, trapped, like an animal who wasn't even given a chance.

Today I had gastronomy again, and food safety. Again the hours are fuzzy to me. I know it sounds awful that lunch is the only thing I remember but I had a good evening.

My friend Alex and I adventured to the Student Rec. Center to discuss with someone about starting a new club. He is trying to get a swing club started and I'm trying to help in anyway possible. Tonight I stayed in and caught up on sleep.